TASHLICH*
D. Dina Friedman
This is supposed to be forgiveness made easy:
Rip up some bread and toss it in the water.
Try to find current. Too often streams are lethargic
in these global warming days. Don’t come with dog.
He might eat the crumbs, prance around.
Really, we’re supposed to take this seriously.
Clutch the crust and divide, divide.
A half of a half of a half…
still leaves remaining sins,
places we fell short of the impossible mark.
Don’t wade barefoot if you value your toes.
Our witnesses, those nippy fish.
Make sure not to do this in Florida.
Alligators have tiny brains.
Avoid barricuda-infested oceans,
though you could entertain visions
your psychic baggage bobbing like Styrofoam
on the open sea. Today in the news,
the Endangered Species Act threatened again. I’m not sure
who’s affected. Some rare form of porpoise, or crocodile?
An obscure one-eyed fish with a rainbow palate? Or maybe the dog,
a species of one in our hearts, though he died years ago.
Yes, yes, I forgive
the dog for eating the river’s bread, ask his forgiveness
for shorting him a romp when, I, too, felt lethargic.
Does he forgive me for the day I gathered his bulk
in my arms, let the vet sink the needle
as he peed a river
over my pure white shirt—his final act?
This forgiveness thing is more like a rock than a crumb,
a shard with points, a cesspool
with only the tiniest outlet
for flowing water. Close your eyes.
Think of littered waves,
endangered species:
fin whales, big-eye tuna,
African wild dogs, hatred
you might feel for all those who’ve wronged you,
acid swept off in the white foam.
*Tashlich is a Jewish ritual on Rosh Hashanah (the New Year) where Jews drop crumbs of bread into flowing water to cast off “sins” and ask forgiveness.
D. Dina Friedman has published in many literary journals including Salamander, Rattle, The Sun, Mass Poetry, Chautauqua Journal, Crab Orchard Review, Cider Press Review, Hawaii Pacific Review, Cold Mountain Review, Lilith, Negative Capability and Rhino, and received four Pushcart Prize and two Best-of-the Net nominations. She is the author of two poetry books, Wolf in the Suitcase (Finishing Line Press), and Here in Sanctuary, Whirling (Querencia Press). Dina’s fiction includes the short-story collection Immigrants (Creators Press) and two YA novels, Escaping Into the Night (Simon and Schuster) and Playing Dad’s Song (Farrar Straus Giroux). To learn more about Dina, visit her website at www.ddinafriedman.com. and subscribe to her blog on living a creative life in a creatively challenged universe at ddinafriedman.substack.com.